Your weakest time may just be your strongest - inspiration

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It's been a strange weekend. I had big plans, but every time I involved myself in something, I seemed to dive in very deep. Good in some ways, not so good in others.

Yesterday I worked through my inbox. Over 1000 emails and comments I hadn't attended to. I worked it until I reached 0. Then I shook my head, wondering how on earth I let things go for so long.

Same thing with my basement. I shuffled some things around in the laundry room, but couldn't stand it a minute longer, and started purging. And got it all done. But what went undone were my tax receipts. Again. Don't know why they're always last on the list, do you? :)

I'm happy with the things I did get done. But disappointed I didn't stay on task. The weekend was just another reminder why I over look things frequently. When you have too much on your plate, you can't do anything overly well.

So, today was Sunday. I knew I needed a good dose of church to get back on track again.

I was alone this weekend so it was an easy decision to just up and go. But it was really difficult to sit and listen. The conversations and instructions and noise in my own head took a good long while to quiet down. The only way I could get there was by closing my eyes and... listening. By stopping the internal conversations and allow it to be quiet. And listen.

I struggled. But I refused to look up until I was there. Once there, it was as if someone opened the front doors and allowed a gust of fresh spring air into the building. I could breathe again.

I'm glad I did. Because the lesson was once again aimed right between my eyes. It was about wrestling within ourselves and taking care of yourself. Ouch.

This quote got to me which made me write it down on the bulletin,

"When you're at your weakest, you really may be at your strongest. That's where God can really use you."

Interesting. So if one breaks, they have no choice but to heal. And one needs downtime to heal. Downtime = more time... Ah... I see.

So I came home. I looked outside at the pouring rain, then glanced between the computer and the fireplace. And the fireplace won. I chose more quiet. I chose to heal.

Because the house wasn't all that tidy, I scooted my chair up nice and tight to the fireplace, lit it, ignored the staging things sitting to the right, closed my eyes and just breathed. Which cleared my head just enough to make some no brainer decisions.

I vowed:

- to get more sleep for starters. Which just means going to bed at a decent time. Doable? Of course! 


-  to eat better. I know how and I even have the right stuff on hand. Anything stopping me? Nope!


- to walk again. I get such an intense amount of energy after a walk it's like a caffeine high. Am I physically ABLE to walk? Yep.


- to make better choices of my duties. Are there some things I'm doing that could go on just fine without me and me without them? Absolutely.


- to free up more time for my son. Less electronics and more outdoors or board game playing? Yes please!

Have you noticed something? All those above things I need to do I can. They're within my reach,  ability and financial means. Every one of them. So what's stopping me?

Me. My choices.

So I took my own advice. I picked up my son, a few groceries vs. eating out and we whipped up a nice homemade meal. Then we pulled out Monopoly. And now I'm off to bed. Early. I aced day 1! :)

Learning to make better choices with my time in order to offer more to myself and others is crucial to our wellbeing.

You are not doing a disservice if you give more time to your family. So... give yourself permission to do that if that is what they/you need. The rest will fall into place just fine. Be good to you. And in return, you'll be even better to those around you.

"When you're at your weakest, you really may be at your strongest. That's where God can really use you." 

Thank-you, Pastor.

Are you at your weakest? 

Why not take a little quiet time for yourself and see what it says to you?

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